Three Lifetimes to Reject the Alpha Who Killed Me

My sister and I fought for ten years for the Alpha heir, Cassian Blackwood.

In the first cycle of the Moon Goddess's reincarnation, I became his Luna as I wished.

After we became mate, everyone said he loved me terribly, which was why he was able to have six Alpha offspring in seven years.

When the seventh pup was about to be born, my inner wolf was too weak to respond to me, yet he chose the pup over the mother and forced me to drink three bowls of wolf poison.

He told me the truth just before he closed his eyes.

Back then, you werent the one I wanted to mark. Since you willingly accepted the Mate Contract, you deserve to be nothing more than a breeding Luna.

Now that I have enough pups, youre no longer of any use to me.

I died filled with hatred.

In the second cycle of the Moon Goddess, I gave the Mate Contract to my sister.

Go ahead, he loves you.

I thought this time everyone would be happy.

But five years later, a pack warrior returned a large water tank containing my sister, who had been tortured into a useless wolf.

Her wolf core was destroyed, her limbs were broken, and she lost her eyes, but her voice remained as clear as ever.

She burst into tears in front of me.

Selena, Cassian doesn't love me at all. He's not even trying to mark me. He said the only thing I could show off was this Moon Voice, and he wanted me to sing moon songs to him day and night.

If I complained even once, hed torment me.

Last night, he said he'd had enough of listening to moon songs, and if the pack warrior hadn't risked his life to save me, I wouldn't be back.

But my sister was too badly injured and died less than two months after returning home.

When I opened my eyes again, it was already the third cycle of the Moon Goddess's reincarnation.

My sister and I looked at each other, bewildered, as the mate contract delivered by the Blackwood Pack arrived.

Who exactly was this guy trying to mark?

***

My mother looked at the nameless Mate Contract, just as confused as we were.

She cautiously asked, "Is Selena the Alpha heir to be registered in the Luna Registry?"

I was Selena Silvermoon.

The reason my mother thought of me first was because Cassian Blackwood and I were childhood sweethearts.

All the wolves thought we were a match made in heaven by the moon goddess.

I used to think that way too. But now, I understand everything.

The person Cassian truly loves was not me.

While I was still in a daze, Cassian nodded and calmly uttered two words.

Could be.

Now my mother was even more confused. She frowned slightly and said, "Alpha heir, you can just answer yes or no."

What do you mean by could be?

Cassian remained expressionless, then answered, What I mean is, I can mark Selena.

I finally came to my senses and refused without hesitation. "I will not form a bond!

The nightmare of the first cycle of the Moon Goddess's reincarnation was still vividly imprinted in my mind.

Back then, Cassian had answered Mother the same way.

But I mistakenly thought he was just shy, which was why he expressed his love for me in such a subtle way.

Afraid of embarrassing him, I urged my mother to agree without thinking.

After mated into the Blackwood Wolf Pack eight years ago, nothing unusual happened.

The only thing that I found a little overwhelming was the matter of carrying offspring.

Cassian coaxed me into thinking he liked pups and wanted to make Blackwood Pack's Alpha bloodline thrive. So he didn't give me a chance to catch my breath.

Every time I finished my postpartum confinement period, he would start tormenting me.

And so, I gave birth to six pups over seven years.

The wolf clan of Moon Capital gradually changed from praising my fertility to envying the inseparable bond between me and Cassian.

Influenced by the rumors, I naturally assumed that Cassian loved me so much that he wanted to have pups with me.

Until the winter of the eighth year.

After giving birth to my seventh cub, I suffered a postpartum hemorrhage due to my weakened state.

Pack healers were doing their best to save him, but Cassian suddenly waved them away.

Before I could ask, he personally poured three bowls of wolfsbane medicine into my mouth.

Only on his deathbed did he let me die knowing the truth.

Selena, I don't love you. You were the one who accepted the Mate Contract. I simply didn't want to disobey the blood pact recognized by Moon Law.

Now that you have seven pus, that's enough. Your role as breeder Luna is no longer of any value. Take a rest.

Filled with resentment, I endured the excruciating pain in my internal organs and cried, demanding an answer.

Cassian hesitated for a moment, then said, "Okay, I'll tell you, what I actually love is your..."

But before I could finish speaking, I breathed my last.

The pain of the first cycle of the Moon Goddess's reincarnation made me tremble all over, but it also made my mind incredibly clear.

I emphasized each word, speaking slowly and deliberately, "Mother, I will not be bound by a contract."

As my mother watched me grow up, she knew how much I loved Cassian.

When he first led the pack warriors to the northern border, I waited for him at Wolfsburg in the north for a whole month.

When he returned injured, I took care of him tirelessly for half a month.

My mother said this would damage Luna's reputation, but I didn't care. I just wanted him to be alright.

So my mother was a little confused. "Selena, didn't you used to say you wouldn't mate with anyone but an Alpha heir? This is a great opportunity.

I shook my head firmly. "Words spoken in youth are not to be taken seriously."

Besides, I already had someone I liked, and he'll be coming soon to exchange Mate Contracts.

My mother looked shocked and glared at me, as if blaming me for not telling her sooner.

She turned and said with a forced smile, "Alpha heir, theres nothing my daughter, Selena, can do about it if she doesnt want to."

How about we get Lyra to form a bond? She likes you too.

Lyra, who had been silent all along, trembled and shook her head vigorously, saying, "Mother, I won't form a bond either."

Our mother frowned and scolded, "What's wrong with you now?!"

Lyra glanced at me, then stammered, "I also have someone I like."

But Lyra, hell came here soon to exchange the Mate Contracts.

After our father's death, our mother had managed the Silvermoon Pack. Although she was a very strict mother, but she loved both me and Lyra from the bottom of her heart.

Seeing that neither of us was willing to form a contract, she didn't want to force us.

So she returned the Mate Contract to Cassian, saying apologetically, "Alpha heir, I'm sorry, the girls have their own ideas, and as their mother, I can't force them to make a decision."

Why don't you go check out other wolf packs?

Perhaps feeling humiliated, Cassian, who had remained calm throughout, became somewhat annoyed this time.

He blurted out. "No! The person I want to form a bond with must be from your Silvermoon Pack!

He then slammed the Mate Contract on the table and turned to leave.

He left only one sentence before leaving.

You have three days to discuss who will form the contract. If I can't choose, I'll just apply to the Lycan Queen for the Royal Mate Decree.

After that, it was only three of us remained in the hall.

My mother, in her haste, gave my sister and me a push, urging us on. "Blackwood Pack and the Lycan Queen are extremely close. The Royal Mate Decree is simply a matter of a word from the Queen."

Once registered with the Royal Council, no wolf pack can refuse.

You two should hurry and have your sweethearts come over to exchange Mate Contracts. It will be too late if you're too late.

Lyra and I looked at each other in bewilderment.

Over the years, we had been arguing fiercely over Cassian, and hadn't paid any attention to any other Alphas.

Those Alphas who once admired us had either formed a bond with us or given up on us completely.

Where on earth were we supposed to find a willing mate on such short time?

My mother noticed our unusual behavior and frowned, asking, "You two didn't just make this up, did you?"

Seeing that we couldn't hide it any longer, we simply told our mother everything about the three cycles of the moon goddess's reincarnation.

It took my mother a long time to accept this explanation.

She held my and my sister's hands, tears streaming down her face.

Of course, as a mother, how could she not feel heartbroken and distressed to hear that her eldest daughter was poisoned to death and that her youngest daughter's wolf core was destroyed?

So, who does the Alpha heir truly love? Why must we choose one of you to form a sworn brotherhood?

I shook my head blankly, feeling guilty, and said, "I died in such a hurry that I didn't hear it."

I turned my gaze to Lyra, but she also replied helplessly, "I don't know either."

Yeah, Cassian never told us this.

After a long and stressful day, we finally decided to split up and take action.

My mother went out for a walk to see if anyone was willing to exchange Mate Contracts with my sister and me, while Lyra was responsible for checking all the eligible female wolves in the territory to see who had any connection with Cassian.

Since I was most familiar with Cassian's character, I had to go to him and try to find out what he had to say.

When I saw Cassian again, he was drawing a portrait of the Moon Soul in Alpha's study.

A portrait of a woman, but without facial features.

When I leaned over to ask him something, he calmly set down his brush.

Just like before, her smile was perfectly timed.

Can't you see? Of course, this woman is you.

My heart ached.

Cassian particularly liked to draw portraits of moon spirits without facial features.

Red dresses, white dresses, black dressessome sing moon songs, some bask in moonlight, and some peruse ancient books.

Every time I asked him, he said it was me.

He didn't draw my facial features because I was the most beautiful in his heart, and no paintbrush could depict my appearance.

I was always overjoyed after hearing it, and never bothered to investigate its flaws.

Now that his mindset had changed, he noticed the abnormality in the details.

The woman in the portrait had a crescent-shaped mark on her right neck, but I didn't.

In addition, there was a very faint scent of Moon Lily remaining on the drawing paper.

I stopped trying to hide it and went straight to the point. "Cassian, this isn't me, is it? There was no crescent-shaped mark on the right side of my neck.

Cassian's back stiffened, a rare occurrence.

After regaining his senses, he looked up at me and asked, "Selena, do you really want to know who she is?"

I held my breath, intently awaiting Cassian's next sentence.

But then he changed the subject, saying, "You fool, this is really you."

That's not a mark, it's just some moon ink that got on my neck by accident. Don't you know how I've treated you since you all these years?

I was speechless for a moment.

Yeah, it was right that Cassian was really good to me.

Alpha Magnus and my father were best friends, and both Cassian and me were inseparable since I could remember.

When I was a young pup, I was playful and didn't like learning the ancient language of the wolf tribe, so I always secretly skipped classes.

Every time my parents were about to punish me, Cassian would rush to my aid.

He promised his parents that he would personally teach me the lessons I had missed.

I always escaped danger because of him.

And he wasn't just saying it casually. He really sacrificed his time, staying up late to tutor me.

He even secretly learned Luna Code and told me about it.

I once laughed at him for having an Alpha heir learning such things, and he sighed and told me that he was afraid that I would be gossiped about by other wolves after I registered in the Luna Registry.

That time, a warm feeling inexplicably rose in my heart. It was around that time that I suddenly felt it would be great to be his Luna.

Later, for his sake, I learned my lesson and reined in my temper.

I truly became a qualified noble Luna heir.

Standing next to him, I could always hear others praising us as a couple blessed by the moon goddess.

Even the Lycan Queen was very satisfied with me and repeatedly told Cassian to treat me well.

He kept those words in mind and treated me better and better.

When I fell ill, he stayed by my side day and night, personally preparing medicine for my treatment.

Whenever I was bullied, he would always stand up for me immediately, no matter who the other person was.

Even during my coming-of-age ceremony, he prepared a sea of moonlight flowers covering the entire territory for me, saying that he didn't want anyone to look down on me.

I really couldn't understand when someone who was so nice suddenly changed.

The sour feeling rising in my throat pulled me back to reality.

I rubbed my nose and asked in a muffled voice, "Cassian, if you really care about me, why didn't you clearly write your name on the Mate Contract?"

Cassian paused slightly, then said, "Selena, you and Lyra have been fighting over me all these years, making a scene that the entire Moon Capital knows about."

I didn't write her name because I was afraid of hurting her feelings. After all, she's your sister. I thought that if you accepted the Mate Contract first, she would feel better.

Unfortunately, I didn't expect you to misunderstand me because of this and reject me out of spite.

Actually, Cassian and I both knew that Lyra didn't like him that much.

What Lyra liked was the feeling of competing with me.

When I was little, I would fight over food, toys, and my parents' affection. When I grew up, I got bored and started fighting over the people I liked.

My absent-mindedness made Cassian think I was wavering.

He pressed his advantage, saying, "So Selena, I've made up my mind. The person I want to mark has always been you."

I will come to Silvermoon Pack in three days to exchange my Mate Contract. I will not do anything that could cause further misunderstandings.

Will you forgive me just this once?

After were bonded later, I'll make you your favorite Moon Lily Cake every day, okay?

Looking at his sincere expression, I fought back tears and choked out, "Okay, I'll give you one chance."

But let's forget about exchanging the Mate Contract; Lyra would make a scene if she knew.

Come directly to the Mate Ceremony in three days.

Cassian let out a long sigh of relief, looking as if he had found something he had lost.

When Lyra returned home, she and our mother learned the whole story and were stunned.

Lyra, contrary to her usual behavior, didn't confront me directly, but instead raised her hand and slapped me.

Selena, can you please wake up? Would you still marry an Alpha like this? Didn't you suffer enough in the first cycle of the Moon Goddess's reincarnation?!

For the first time, I wasn't angry with Lyra. Instead, I calmly sewed my ceremonial robes and said, "Mate bond is a must. But the person hes going to mate with isn't me...

Lyra stood there, stunned, her brows furrowing slightly.

She asked me anxiously, "You don't mean you want me to mate with him, do you?"

Selena, we're blood sisters. We may argue, but I've never intended to harm you. If you dare to cheat me, I'll really turn on you.

I rolled my eyes at her, then explained to her.

What are you thinking, Lyra? In the last cycle of the Moon Goddess, I thought Cassian liked you, thats why I made you form a bond. Now that I know your fate too, how could I possibly harm you again?

Lyra, you misunderstood me.

Lyra breathed a sigh of relief and continued, "So, you mean youll let the female wolf from our pack replace us to mate with him?"

I still shook my head.

Cassian is an arrogant and proud wolf. If he didn't like someone, why would he possibly look down on an ordinary female wolf?

Lyra deflated, annoyed, and said, "This is wrong, that is wrong, what exactly do you want, Selena?"

Besides the two of us and those female wolves, who else can we marry?!

I looked up at my mother and whispered, "Mother."

Our mother took two steps back in alarm, waving her hands frantically. "Oh, no! I can't do that! I'm old enough to be Cassian's mother!

I was both amused and exasperated listening her refusal.

No, Mother. I just need your help with something. I think I know who Cassian has feelings for.

Actually, I didn't realize it at first. Cassian's act was so convincing that anyone who heard it would believe he was truly sincere towards me.

But he forgot to say his last sentence.

My favorite was not Moon Lily Cake at all.

On the contrary, I had always hated the smell of Moon Lily.

And the same scent lingered on the portrait of the Moon Soul.

However, he did remind me that Silvermoon Pack does indeed have someone who is a big fan of Moon Lily Cake.

Moreover, before I came back, I specifically went to verify that there was indeed a crescent-shaped mark on the right side of that person's neck.

So I've decided that rather than continuing to argue with Cassian and eventually ending up at the Royal Council, I should just pretend to agree for now.

Once the Mate Ceremony was over and the Luna Registry registration was complete, everything would get really interesting.