Juliana Adrian Vanessa Novel When the Obsessiveness Leaves Me

After a car accident, my memory ended ten years ago, on the night I got down on one knee and proposed to Adrian Halloway.

I tore through every app on my phone, desperate to find proof that Adrian was my husband, but in my contacts, there was only one number. My message threads were completely blank.

Helpless, I called my best friend, Hannah Price, to ask if my proposal that night had actually worked. She exploded at me like a firecracker, "Juliana Rowe, have you completely lost your mind? Worked? Youve been trying to divorce the man!"

The first thing that flashed through my head when I hung up was, 'Damn, Im impressive. I actually managed to land the untouchable Adrian Halloway.'

The second thing was staring at the handwritten divorce agreement on my nightstand with total confusion.

'Whos getting divorced? Me? Im the one who wants this? What the hell is wrong with me?'
Chapter 1
The day Adrian Halloway came to take me home from the hospitalwith another woman at his sideI tucked the divorce agreement out of sight.
Even though I'd lost ten years of memories, I recognized the handwriting on that paper. It was mine. The date at the bottom was yesterday.
"Juliana Rowe, do you ever go a single day without making trouble?" Adrian leaned against the car window, his voice like cold steel. "If this happens again, I won't lift a finger to help you."
Ten years had carved lines into his face, but the one thing that hadn't changed was the disdain in his eyes.
The woman beside him was beautiful, with an unsettling trace of familiarity.
"Adrian, don't talk to her like that," she said softly. "She just had a car accident and suffers from amnesia. She needs rest."
Adrian gave a sharp, derisive laugh, contempt flashing in his gaze. "Amnesia? Sounds like just another one of her tricks. After all these years, and she still hasn't grown up."
He pulled open the back door. "Well? Don't just stand there. Get in."
Those cutting words would have made anyone else turn on their heel, their pride intact. Nevertheless, with a grin, I yanked open the front passenger door and slid right in. "Don't rush me. I want to sit here."
Adrian's brows drew together, irritation darkening his face. He opened his mouth to argue, but I grabbed his hand, tugging playfully.
"If you don't let me sit up here, I'll cry. And then we'll both be embarrassed, but it won't be me who looks bad."
Ten years ago, this was exactly how I clung to him.
When he told me to stay away, I'd start by holding his hand, then loop my arm through his.
When he said not to follow him, I'd conveniently bump into him everywhere he went.
I always went against what he wanted.
I chased him for so long. And didn't I win in the end? Ten years later, Adrian was my husband.
I snuck a glance at the hint of wood-brown peeking from his cuff, and my heart warmed with satisfaction.
Capricorns were quiet and slow to open up. I'd looked it up.
Sure enough, Adrian's expression shifted, his eyes clouded as he stared at me. His expression changed and changed again before he finally tore his gaze away and looked at the woman beside him.
"Sorry, Vanessa. You'll have to take the backseat."
A flicker of hurt crossed her face, but she smiled graciously. "It's fine."
Once it was settled, I buckled my seatbelt and patted my stomach. "Adrian, let's get something to eat. The hospital food was awful. I'm starving."
He rattled off excuse after excuse, but in the end, he gave in to my persistence and drove us to a restaurant.
Daniel Brooks, the restaurant owner's eyes lit up the second he saw us. He knew me. Before I turned twenty, I often brought Adrian here to eat. "Jules? Adrian? My God, it's been nearly ten years! You're all grown up now."
I ignored the part about "ten years", slid past Vanessa, and wrapped myself around Adrian's arm, pride gleaming in my smile.
Chapter 2
"Daniel, I'm not just grown up now. I'm Mrs. Halloway, too."
I smiled as I placed our order, just like I always used to. "The same dishes as before. No cilantro, no spice." I knew Adrian's favorites by heart, down to what he couldn't stand.
However, just as the owner nodded, Adrian cut in, "No. Medium spice. And with cilantro."
He turned his gaze on me, puzzlement flickering there before hardening into certainty. "Jules, my tastes changed a long time ago."
My smile froze, but I quickly soothed myself. It was fine. I'd lost ten years of memories. In ten years, people's tastes were bound to change.
I brushed it off, unwrapped his silverware, and handed it to him. "Even better. I like cilantro and spice. Now we can finally share the same dishes."
Instead of taking them, Adrian passed the tableware to the woman who'd been silent until now.
"Van. Here."
Van.
The name made me falter. In that instant, I understood why she'd looked so familiar.
Vanessa Grant was Adrian's first love, his elusive, untouchable, precious sweetheart from when we were twenty.
So some tastes didn't change, not even after ten years.
Was that why, a decade later, I'd decided to divorce the man I'd loved for fifteen years? Because I saw her again?
A sour ache spread through my chest. My fingers brushed the strap of the crossbody bag at my side. Inside was the handwritten divorce agreement and a journal.
Something whispered that if I opened that journal, I'd find the reason I wanted to leave Adrian, but I only clutched the strap tighter, refusing to look.
I loved him.
The twenty-year-old me still loved Adrian with everything I had.
At the table, Adrian and Vanessa talked to each other like no one else was there, as if I didn't exist.
Jealousy burned hot in my eyes. I slammed my plate down just to make a din, to force his attention, but Adrian didn't so much as glance my way.
Maybe the thirty-year-old me could've offered a polite "excuse me" and walked out with her pride.